Dearest community,
Here is part one of a long overdue update
The autumn of 2014 started out looking really good. I seemed to be feeling a little more energetic and I seem to be sleeping better and I started doing more outings and I seemed to be building up my manual therapy practice. I had one week where I had six clients and the majority of them were paying clients. Some of those clients had some significant improvement with my work in a very short period of time.
But then around December some symptoms started showing up which would later turn into some very serious struggles with my health. I had a urinary tract infection that I couldn't seem to kick and then my digestion which is already struggling a lot really tanked and I started feeling really crappy most of the time. I also started having a lot of trouble breathing in early March because of such severe tightness in my lower rib cage and chest areas. My breathing got sorry restricted by the end of a April that we called 911 and I went to the hospital and ended up staying there for a week. I honestly really thought that was the end. I felt so miserable that one of those nights in The hospital that I said the big goodbye to my parents and my sister Linda. We tried finding a short-term rehab facility as a transition to going home but that failed. Thank god my parents came out to stay for the whole month of May because they were able to meet my extra needs as I started coming out of my funk.
The hospital seemed convinced that I was having some cardiac problem so they did extensive testing only to come up with nothing, my heart was looking great. Their best recommendation was to take more anti-spasm medication and to take an antidepressant.
Shortly out of the hospital I stumbled upon a protocol for doing a comprehensive healing of the digestive system and my entire body. Many of you probably don't know that I have had a lifelong history of severe digestive issues. These issues have manifested as severe food sensitivities, vulnerability to pathogens, slow healing, weakness, joint pain, brain fog, poor sleep, inability to gain weight and much more. These issues of course have been deeply compromised by my spinal cord injury. I believe these injuries will heal a lot faster and more fully if my digestive system is functioning on all cylinders.
Life can be terrible living in a body that's as broken as mine has been but to add insult to injury with severe food allergies and poor assimilation of nutrients and poor energy levels and poor sleep and lots of physical discomfort makes life quite unbearable at times. Although I don't think I could actually do it, I have thought very seriously at times about what would be the easiest way to end my life.
Currently I have nursing assistants spending about five hours a day with me three in the morning to get me out of bed and two in the evening to get me back into bed. I have a homemaker attendant Who spends about four hours a day with me, two hours around lunch and two hours around dinner time. And I have people who come and do overnight support with me and they are in the house from 10:15 PM until 7:30 AM in the morning. They help me get propped up with pillows before bed and then in the middle of the night they shift me from one side to the other with pillows and they're often up once or twice more with me because of some sort of discomfort or needing some water, etc. it really isn't much of a life at times. However, it seems there is something here for me to uncover or Discover, and thus I persist.
Regardless of what I just wrote I still continue to feel incredibly grateful for being here. Alive on this amazing planet and surrounded by so many beautiful people. All of you have touched me in someway. Weather through generosity of time or love or prayer or donation. At times I see the sheer magnitude of all this giving and I am completely blown away!
Here is part one of a long overdue update
The autumn of 2014 started out looking really good. I seemed to be feeling a little more energetic and I seem to be sleeping better and I started doing more outings and I seemed to be building up my manual therapy practice. I had one week where I had six clients and the majority of them were paying clients. Some of those clients had some significant improvement with my work in a very short period of time.
But then around December some symptoms started showing up which would later turn into some very serious struggles with my health. I had a urinary tract infection that I couldn't seem to kick and then my digestion which is already struggling a lot really tanked and I started feeling really crappy most of the time. I also started having a lot of trouble breathing in early March because of such severe tightness in my lower rib cage and chest areas. My breathing got sorry restricted by the end of a April that we called 911 and I went to the hospital and ended up staying there for a week. I honestly really thought that was the end. I felt so miserable that one of those nights in The hospital that I said the big goodbye to my parents and my sister Linda. We tried finding a short-term rehab facility as a transition to going home but that failed. Thank god my parents came out to stay for the whole month of May because they were able to meet my extra needs as I started coming out of my funk.
The hospital seemed convinced that I was having some cardiac problem so they did extensive testing only to come up with nothing, my heart was looking great. Their best recommendation was to take more anti-spasm medication and to take an antidepressant.
Shortly out of the hospital I stumbled upon a protocol for doing a comprehensive healing of the digestive system and my entire body. Many of you probably don't know that I have had a lifelong history of severe digestive issues. These issues have manifested as severe food sensitivities, vulnerability to pathogens, slow healing, weakness, joint pain, brain fog, poor sleep, inability to gain weight and much more. These issues of course have been deeply compromised by my spinal cord injury. I believe these injuries will heal a lot faster and more fully if my digestive system is functioning on all cylinders.
Life can be terrible living in a body that's as broken as mine has been but to add insult to injury with severe food allergies and poor assimilation of nutrients and poor energy levels and poor sleep and lots of physical discomfort makes life quite unbearable at times. Although I don't think I could actually do it, I have thought very seriously at times about what would be the easiest way to end my life.
Currently I have nursing assistants spending about five hours a day with me three in the morning to get me out of bed and two in the evening to get me back into bed. I have a homemaker attendant Who spends about four hours a day with me, two hours around lunch and two hours around dinner time. And I have people who come and do overnight support with me and they are in the house from 10:15 PM until 7:30 AM in the morning. They help me get propped up with pillows before bed and then in the middle of the night they shift me from one side to the other with pillows and they're often up once or twice more with me because of some sort of discomfort or needing some water, etc. it really isn't much of a life at times. However, it seems there is something here for me to uncover or Discover, and thus I persist.
Regardless of what I just wrote I still continue to feel incredibly grateful for being here. Alive on this amazing planet and surrounded by so many beautiful people. All of you have touched me in someway. Weather through generosity of time or love or prayer or donation. At times I see the sheer magnitude of all this giving and I am completely blown away!